And now for something completely different.
I blog for family, friends, and self. It's not necessarily therapy for me, but I've been hoping over the year I've been doing it that it wasn't just people I knew who had been reading it and upping my visitor count. I've hoped that someone would find my blog who might be inspired, uplifted, encouraged, able to be helped in any way. How excited was I that I got an email the other night from a gentleman who stumbled upon it through google searching.
People ask me frequently if I ever blame or question God for what has happened to me over the years. They say I have a right to be upset, and wonder why it isn't time for someone else to deal with an issue and for me to have a break. For everyone who has questioned, I always reply the same. If God can use me as a witness to anyone, so be it, and that I'm sure there is someone out there who is worse off than I. And for all who think what I've been through is a lot, the man who contacted me puts me to shame. I won't disclose personal details, but it's pretty remarkable that he is alive to even speak with me regarding his case.
Basically, he was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis in 2010, they tried every form of medication, and within a month he was in surgery. They created a J pouch (common for Ulcerative Colitis), it went bad, and there were complications. He had 4 major surgeries within a few weeks, including 3 in 3 days, went septic, went hemmoragic, ended up needing 30 pints of blood transfused, had a lung collapse, ended up on dialysis, and somehow managed to stay alive. But through it all he managed to keep his strength and faith in the Lord. Here is someone, wife, 5 sons, who could easily question God, blame God, get angry at God for the burden to himself, his family, his church, but instead found the blessing through it all. His testimony astounds me and makes me feel remorseful for every time I've felt even the slightest bit sorry for myself.
Why did he contact me, you might ask? Well, come to find out he's not healing either from his last surgery, and will be undergoing the same surgery I will but a bit later on. He too will be getting the gracilis cut out and stuffed in places unmentionable. He too will have the worry and wonder of whether this one will be the one to work, or whether he'll be looking at more surgery down the road. As nice as it is sometimes to know I'm not the only one going through it is as sad as it makes me to hear he is facing the exact same thing. I would never wish this on my worst enemy, let alone a loving husband and father of five.
I will be going through surgery before he, and hopefully will be able to give him pointers on the recovery, and be able to encourage his spirit and lift him up in prayer. Afterall, who knows better than someone who has just gone through it?
So every time you think of me, think of him too. Think of how far he has come, and yet how far he still has to go. Think of what he has to lose and how he still has chosen not to. And though things in your life might not seem great at times, remember there is always, ALWAYS someone worse off than you are. Life will work out. Things will turn around and look up. Just trust in the power of the Lord and put your faith and hope in him.
Much love always,